Red Rabbits

Anonymous asked: You say you are a mess but you seem like one of the most "together" 17-year-old's I have ever read about. You live our life to the fullest (writing music, creating your band, making videos, going to school, working, playing golf). Not seeing you're a mess at all. You seem more like a role model to me.

well, thank you very much. ha. when I say I’m a mess, I mean in my thoughts. ha. 

True.

• wake up: exhausted
• 12 pm: exhausted
• 3 pm: fucking exhausted
• 5 pm: really fucking exhausted
• 7 pm: about to pass out
• bed time: the energy of 5 million condensed suns

I just realized.. 

I’m a mess. 

My thoughts are so screwed up, the dreams I had mean nothing to me now, and I’m just going through the motions everyday. Nothing more to hope for but the usual; Inhale. Exhale.

I need to figure my life out. 

2/22/12

Lemon bars are my favorite desert. I love lemons. I love lemon bars. I like eating lemon bars and drinking earl grey tea. Together. My blood elf hunter on World of Warcraft is now level 40. I know, I know. “What a noob.” Shut up, I just started. So an extremely unintelligent individual put on his facebook that he was “White and Nerdy.” I, naturally, got upset. I felt dumb because, all this time I’d been claiming to be a “nerd” and now, so does he. So, that makes us equal.

(nerd = nerd)

Then I thought, well crap. How can I change this equation to work in my favor? Then I figured it out. See, He’ll be “Nerd x”. Nerd x is, like I said, unintelligent. Therefore, we can leave knowledge(K) at 0. So, as I am “Nerd Y”, the equation goes like this:

(Nerd x ≠ [Nerd y + k])

So, now here it is, 10:36 P.M. and I can go to sleep with no worries of being equal to an ignoramus. I’m going to read a few chapters of “The Legend of Drizzt: Homeland” By R.A. Salvatore, and enjoy my tea.

I wonder if anyone actually reads the posts I put up when I’m just rambling about absolutely nothing. Maybe 1 or 2 people, but it can’t be many. You know, I have no respect for “Lil Wayne” at all. He’s a terrible, terrible musician, a terrible lyricist, and an even worse person. The support he gets from women blows my mind. The way he talks about them should not turn them on to his music.. But somehow, it does. Strange. 

I think I should have been born in the 20s. I really do. That seemed like a good time. I would’ve enjoyed the heck out of the 20s. I looked up to see if swallowing blood is bad for you, just out of curiosity… it isn’t. 

2/21/12

I have to work today. I don’t even know why I work, honestly. I get paid minimum wage for 3 hours a day, and it costs me $20 just to get to work. That doesn’t make much sense to me. Not to mention the fact that they only paid me for 10 hours when I worked over 20. I gotta remind myself to talk to the manager about that… 

I tried to write a song earlier. Not for the band, just for my solo music. It didn’t work out too well, so I ended up playing World of Warcraft for an hour. Old game, but it’s still amazing as heck. I’ve been reading on of R.A. Salvatore books lately. I’m really enjoying it. I’m going to read the whole series. We run out of mountain dew so fast in my house. It’s really depressing. Diet pepsi is the best thing we have to drink. How disgusting. “It tastes the same as regular pepsi.” Bull. I will never believe that statement. But regular pepsi isn’t even any good, so it still makes diet pepsi taste no better.

I’ve had a pretty good day so far. I guess. In aquatic science we’ve been having to take these tests over fish and their common and scientific names, and it’s really easy… I don’t know why everyone complains about them.

My salt shaker has been empty all week, and you’d have to turn it completely upside down to get just a pinch of salt, but apparently someone filled it up and I didn’t get the memo, and now my taquitos look like they went through some kind of mineral blizzard. I bought a new bass guitar yesterday from Dan’s guitar shop in Cleveland. That guy is a total jerk. Terrible businessman. I will never even buy a single guitar pick from that store again. 

It is way too bright outside. Sunlight is just like.. killing me through my window right now. I had to take my over-shirt off because I was just melting in the heat. I looked up if cannibalism was illegal in the United States. It isn’t. But murdering someone is. So as soon as I find someone who’s gonna let me eat their dead body, I’m going to try it for sure.

zeldaandkittens-deactivated2012 asked: hi

well hello.